~ExiLeDs HOPE for YOU, for a New Year, New Beginnings~


~ExiLeDs HOPE for YOU, for a New Year, New Beginnings~

As 2015, one of the hardest, most trying years of my life draws to a close, a year filled with the absolute most soul crushing devastating losses and heart ache, punctuated by absolute moments of beauty. This year, 2015 for yours truly has definitely been a very proving one for ExiLeD. Having had to let go of one of my truest loves for, if you love someone, set them free..Immediately followed with the unspeakable horrific loss of one of the greatest loves of my life, due to a path which I so selfishly set her upon many years ago in a life long since gone... Never having a chance to say goodbye, the greatest wrong of my life never again to be made right forever lost to oblivion and time as well as the recent killings of my two babies my black cat Bella and my German Shepard Brielle, the last remaining things which brought this ExiLeD SpiRiT any comfort, love and peace in this life so selfishly and maliciously taken from me out of sheer hatred and spite now just simply me myself and i left to pick up the lost pieces of a life shattered over this past year.. But I must say, this one, very special moment in my life, one of the most beautiful things anyone ever could have done for this eternally lost, adrift soul 
This, simplest acts of kindness in honor of ExiLeD, Agape being the truest, purest, most high divine form of unconditional love there is... made all of it., Every last heart break, every single tear shed in the darkness of the light so, so incredibly worth it. Never in this life nor the next could I begin to sum up in any sort of words just what this meant to me, my forgiveness for every shitty thing I've ever done, my salvation, and mission accomplished in this life. If tonight I shall die, I too have same matching tattoo, same spot, covering all the scars ..my constant reminder of an ugly, hateful, painful past with the absolute purest, most beautiful thing that could ever exist, AGAPE, I will go out with absolute peace, comfort, and a smile on my face for it shall be the last thing I see as I leave this life. But this Ninja has far too much to accomplish and bless this world with. Some very exciting new things coming yalls way all thanks to this incredibly, beautiful in every single way most wondrous of souls and the HOPE which she has so very graciously blessed me with. For as long as I know she's out there. Theres nothing that will stop me from being here on this Earth making this ninja leave far before his time cuz simply knowing she is out there somewhere, I must at all costs carry on and remain just in case I ever am truly needed.. In such a tremendously dark, nightmarish hellish year of darkness and most tragic of losses to myself and those around me one single act of kindness makes every last bit of it so very worth it WOW! there really is beauty and miracles in the simplest of things. So, as this year comes to a close, my HOPE for each and everyone of you, is that may you find your one miracle, your one reason to always no matter what no matter how bad things get no matter the storms raging around you be able to carry on and remain steadfast in your good fight. May all of your hopes and dreams come true, may 2016 be the absolute greatest year for all of you yet! something tells me it might possibly be for ExiLeD, again, I cannot stress we have many AMAZING and EXCITING things headed yalls way that i PROMISE you will not want to miss out on and NOT be a part of! For now, I shall leave you with this., though Im gonna catch some heat for doing this, for its "mainstream" I will tell you this group, is one of the most talented and gifted I've heard over the radio airwaves in quite sometime, and for i myself. this song sums it all up as to why I, ExiLeD does what I do day in day out. Happiest of New Years to each and everyone of our family in the Underground 


Forever and Always yours Truest
~ExiLeD~